Getting Back on the Wagon

Eat for the body you want, not the body you have.

Ugh. Oh, how I have fallen off the wagon.

Having this blog made me really think about nothing but food 24/7, and for the first time failures and successes felt like something even more monumental - something I had to admit to the world. I've been SCARED to be here, I feel THAT ashamed and disappointed in myself.

For the past -many- weeks I haven't been thinking about it. Or, trying not to. I still feel guilty as fuck for what I've been eating, but I do it anyway. Sigh.

I'm certain I've gained weight but since I still don't have a scale (yes, it does blow) I can't know how much. Which is good and bad, you know.

My goal at this point is to just eat less and move more. I can't weigh my progress, but I'm going to start taking pictures. I HATE taking pictures of my body, but I know it will help. I won't post them, but I will archive them on my comp so I can watch what happens. 

That's pretty much all I have to say. I guess I'm mostly speaking to myself. I need to stop being a fat, lazy lump and fucking DO SOMETHING about these LUMPS of LARD. ;)

But I hope you guys are all hanging in there and doing well! <3 I'm sorry I haven't stayed in contact better. Hope you had nice thin Holidays too! ;)