Giving up Something Good for Something Better.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Feeling It

Does it ever feel exhausting,
Knowing that we'll be doing this forever?
Oh, Hello, Today..
Feeling really ill today, I think I shouldn't have taken tums last night in hopes of killing my cravings. I ended up feeling like puking all day, but there's really nothing to puke. I feel weak too. Just another sign that I was a pig those weeks ago, and my body evidently liked have 1000+ calories a day and is seriously protesting getting back on track...

But I feel blessed that my stomach flattens out pretty quickly. It's the one part of me I think is actually decent. Not perfect, but not my biggest worry either. I can trust it to change the quickest, so it's nice to be able to feel it getting smaller, tighter... My thighs, however, seem to be impossible to change... They are so stubborn.

Anyway. I decided this morning that I would change my goal to 500, because I think if I did 300 today there'd be no chance of me working out tonight. And I need that more than just starving.

 Lunch/Stack: Apple (35) and assorted dry cereals (110)

Dinner: Veggie and chicken stew (made by my mom) ~350?

Total: 495 cal

It feels like I ate so much though...

I set some goals for the rest of the week, I don't know if I'll keep them since I don't know what will be going on later, but it looks good right now. :)

Preparing for Vacation
(this is mostly for me and probably boring, just to warn you)

Since I'm going away and will be eating restaurant food, I wanted to do some research now so I know roughly how many calories are in the things I know we'll be eating.

I'm using a few different calorie websites and restaurants and taking an average of what they say.

Turkey Club 510
Pancakes(2) 520
Chimichanga 1000
French Fries 500
(Pancakes with syrup and butter; large french fries)

God those numbers are so ugly! :( The Chimichanga is a really rough estimate on my part, since there weren't many reliable answers on the web. So obviously I need to eat half of each portion, bring home leftovers and let someone else finish them, lol.

I am dreading eating... :( I've just barely started to do well again...
Not to mention I know how these foods make me act and I know how good my friends and boyfriend make me feel, and it's so easy to just cave in...

But I can't. I won't. Not this vacation. I'm done with this game of binging one week and starving the next. I've got to stay on track for the long term this time.

French fries are easy to avoid. But I don't know how to cope with Mexican foods. Especially at his favorite restaurant, where everything is drenched in cheese and sour cream. I guess I'll just have to find a way to eat REALLY slow, and quit as soon as I possibly can. On Sunday we're going out for pancakes for a friend's birthday. I wish there were healthy choices at a Pancake House, but I don't think so, any suggestions?

Awards?! What?!

Thank you Bella and Kissa both for nominating me for another award! I feel so honored! I thought my blog had fallen under the radar again, hehe. It kills me to see you lovely ladies so sad, but maybe it will cheer you up to know you made my sick day so much brighter? <3 I will post the award and complete the rules soon. Right now I gotta go work out! Love you guys!

Weekly Calorie Calendar (3/14 - 3/20)
Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday
489 570 495 400
400 600
Final Calorie Total :: Calorie Goal :: Met Goal :: Over Goal
This Week's Excess Calories: 70


  1. Sensible choice, to eat more so you can exercise :)
    Nice intake and good luck with your holiday!
    Stay strong,
    Lottie x

  2. Aaaah!
    I love your calorie calendar, it is only for the best to stay organised.

    It is so tiring just knowing that we'll be doing this forever, but we can take comfort in the fact that it can only get easier.

    Good luck on your holiday! Stay away from the pancakes!


  3. Vacations are so hard to eat well on. But you can do it :)




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