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Monday, April 18, 2011

The Work Week Begins Again

My beloved monster and me,
We go everywhere together.
He will always be the only thing
That comes between me and the awful sting
That comes from living in a world that's so damn mean.
- Eels (My Beloved Monster... Sorta)
I'm not sure if those lyrics relate more to my boy, or my ED...

Another Fresh Start

So now it's Monday, the beginning of another week. I've got two good weeks under my belt, and this week will be no different! However, I think my weight is going to be a bit crummy since I'm definitely bloating & cramping from my period now. :( The cramps suck but the bloating I completely hate. My tummy is the part of me I'm most proud of and it's really depressing to see it get all pooched-out. ;(

Needless to say, my weight hasn't budged, probably in anticipation. Going to work out extra all week to try to keep that number down. But as long as my intake remains low, I'll be happy. :) And there's no reason why it won't. :)

Took a nice hike today, tried to keep my heart rate up (which isn't hard when I'm restricting, my heart normally feels like it's going to burst out of my chest) and I'll probably go for another one later along with lots of youtube workouts tonight and my regular circuit.

By the way I was unable to take new measurements because the tape measure has vanished. There's a million reasons for this, but suspect #1 has four fuzzy paws and an affinity for small plastic things filled with string that rattle... She'll be up for interrogation this evening.

 Since my period is here, the best I'm going to hope for by Sunday is 107 lbs. I know that's only 2lbs, and I know I wanted to lose 4lbs a week, but I forgot to take into account the monthly bitch and I simply gain so much when I have it. ;/ Bummer dude. But what can ya do. We'll see! I'll do my best!

Oh, I am missing my boy so badly right now, and I have to wait so long to see him. :( My heart is just aching... I hate not having his reassurance, he makes me feel so beautiful, so small... And so adored... And most of all I just want to be held. I want to go back to cuddling all day and pretending to wrestle and all the silly little things that happen under those sheets... Ugh... But, atleast the next time I see him I will never have to say goodbye again.

Today's Thinspo
Theme: Couples
Not really focused on thin.. But I'm feeling sappy so shut up. :(

In Response to Your Comments

 Lottie - Thanks so much beautiful! I know I can too, it's just a matter of focus and time! <3 Thank you for the support! xoxox

Kate - MyFitnessPal looks awesome actually, I'm totally working on signing up right now! Unfortunately I usually can't use Pandora, my internet is crap, but I'll keep trying and if I can at some point I will definitely look that up! <3 <3 <3 Thank you so much for the support lovie! Can't wait to read your post!! <3 Hugs!

Olivia - I left a comment on your blog but I will post here too. When I get to my ultimate goal weight I'm going to try to increase my intake slowly and see how much I can get away with eating without gaining. I don't know what my body will really look like at 100, so I don't know if that's even the ideal weight for me yet. There's a lot to "wait and see" about! I also want to keep my body toned so I know I'll have to eat enough for working out still. <3 Thanks for the love and support, I'm so so glad my blog inspires you and I'm so glad you're feeling better!!

Today's Intake 

Breakfast: 1 apple (50 cal)

Lunch/Snack: --

Dinner: -

Fluids: Iced Green Tea x2 (0 cal)
Acai and Blueberry Green Tea x1 (0 cal)
Pomegranate and Raspberry Green Tea x1 (0 cal)
Iced Red Peach Tea x1 (0 cal)
Water (0 cal) 

Total: 50 cal
(Today's Goal: 400)

Calorie Calendar (4/11 - 4/17)
Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday
Calories 50 500 300 400 500 400 300
Weight  109.2 - - - - - -
Calorie Goal :: Calorie Total :: Met Goal :: Over Goal :: Incomplete 
Weight Loss: 0 lbs :: Weight Gain: 0 lbs 

Weekly Goals
107 lbs by the end of the week
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  1. Hey girlie, I have the same plan-get to my ugw, gradually raise my intake. I want to hit 119 and then see how it looks, and slim the rest just by toning. Your plan sounds good, I can't wait til we can change our eating together! That'll be cool to try and get healthy but stay skinny. I'm sorry you miss your boy. You both will be together and happy before you know it. be strong, much love and skinnies

  2. I plan to comment again once I've read your whole post, but you can change Your goals from 1200 calories to whatever you want! Mine is set at 500 right now =)




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