"The rain fell slow, down on all the roofs of uncertainty.
I thought of you and the years, and all the sadness, fell away from me."
I thought of you and the years, and all the sadness, fell away from me."
- Pink Floyd
I hate not knowing what I want. I hate liking my body.
I hate looking in the mirror and feeling like my curves are good where they are.
But really, I hate remembering the next morning, or the next hour, that I am fat.
I'm stuck at 110 lbs. Stuck. Too fat.
I had cereal and milk.
I purged.
But most of all, I hate that I now have to confess to all of you that I am not strong today...
I don't know what to think.
Tomorrow, when I am thinking "clearly" because I've had more than enough to eat, I will feel strong again and be ready to push myself hard again.
Today is a bad day.
I know, boo frickin hoo. lol Sorry for the gloomy post.
Gotta go work out now. I'll update later!
<3
Sometimes we aren't strong. The best we can do during that time is get through the day, and support other people. I hope the rest of your day is easier, and less painful dear. We don't judge, and we all know you are wonderful.
ReplyDeleteSending you skinnies dear, always!
i'm sorry hun - we all lose strength more often than we'd like. but we pick it back up again. xx
ReplyDeleteYou mightn't see it love, but you're such an inspiration. That you can see a reflection and like it; even if it changes the next time you see it. You'll get there; I know it.
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