Giving up Something Good for Something Better.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Hello Chickadees

"So why care for these petty obsessions?
Your designer heart still beats with common blood
And what if you could have genetic perfection?
Would you change who you are if you could?
- Repo! The Genetic Opera

Hey ladies. Man, where do I start? A week's hiatus ended up being way longer than a week, didn't it? Well, I'm still alive and kicking. I gave everything a lot of thought, got my head on straight for a while, and was doing well. And then I binged for a while, and went through a period of time convinced I didn't care about food or my weight. Of course, at the back of my mind I was always thinking, "This is going to hit me like a freight train when I come back to my senses..."

 And I think we all know how that story ends, since here I am, sitting on my little blog again. I haven't weighed since I last blogged... I'm too scared. I know I'm usually pleasantly surprised but I doubt that will be the case this time.

All I know is this: I'm back on track now. I told my boyfriend I'm "going on a diet" (as if I've never been on one before). I've never admitted to "being on a diet" before. Of course I'm too afraid of the attention it will bring.

But anyway. I don't have a lot of time to blog right now, but I wanted to say you've all been in my thoughts every day, I've missed your love and support and your beautiful, inspiring pictures and your heartfelt blogs. I don't think I can catch up on every blog I follow, but I'll try to read some recent posts when I get a chance.

Thank you so much for your comments and well-wishes on my last post. As gloomy as I sound, I think I'm actually doing pretty well, and I have to admit, it was nice to let go and eat some chocolate for a while. ;) But I know that's not going to get me where I want to be, so back on board I go! I already feel better, letting these thoughts out. (:

 I'll try to update later! Love you guys! <3


  1. ooooh it just brightened my evening so much to see that you had posted! I'm glad to see you're back, and I'll be looking for updates!

  2. Im the same with people knowing im on a diet.
    Like only my best mate knows and he doesn't understand why i told him not to tell anyone.

    I kinda feel like if people knew i was on a diet they would look at my body more, and expect me to be thin or losing a lot of weight.
    Its just unneeded pressure and attention i guess

    Welcome back by the way :)

  3. Hey, you'll lose the weight soon.
    I hate telling people I'm on a diet, they try to convince I don't need it, even though I desperately do.
    Good luck honey <3

  4. Welcome back, Rowan. I'm glad you're feeling pretty well.

    Maybe you'd want to avoid the scale for a while? Just incase, so you don't get discouraged.

    Stay strong. <3

  5. Welcome back darling girl, it made my day to see your name pop up! I'd try and avoid the scale for a few days. I may also liquid fast sat if you'd be interested in joining me! Sending you those magical skinnies

  6. Glad youre back :) I love your blog! Don't worry, you'll be alright :)





These are my opinions. You do not have to share them. If you disagree with me, please leave. If you are receiving treatment and do not wish to relapse, close this page. Neither you nor I can force the other to start or stop extreme dieting. You are here by choice. Extreme dieting is not good for you and I do not "suggest" or "endorse" it. However I will support you if you already feel the same as I do.