Hello Chickadees

 

"So why care for these petty obsessions?
Your designer heart still beats with common blood
And what if you could have genetic perfection?
Would you change who you are if you could?"

- Repo! The Genetic Opera

Hey ladies. Man, where do I start? A week's hiatus ended up being way longer than a week, didn't it? Well, I'm still alive and kicking. I gave everything a lot of thought, got my head on straight for a while, and was doing well. And then I binged for a while, and went through a period of time convinced I didn't care about food or my weight. Of course, at the back of my mind I was always thinking, "This is going to hit me like a freight train when I come back to my senses..."

 And I think we all know how that story ends, since here I am, sitting on my little blog again. I haven't weighed since I last blogged... I'm too scared. I know I'm usually pleasantly surprised but I doubt that will be the case this time.

All I know is this: I'm back on track now. I told my boyfriend I'm "going on a diet" (as if I've never been on one before). I've never admitted to "being on a diet" before. Of course I'm too afraid of the attention it will bring.

But anyway. I don't have a lot of time to blog right now, but I wanted to say you've all been in my thoughts every day, I've missed your love and support and your beautiful, inspiring pictures and your heartfelt blogs. I don't think I can catch up on every blog I follow, but I'll try to read some recent posts when I get a chance.

Thank you so much for your comments and well-wishes on my last post. As gloomy as I sound, I think I'm actually doing pretty well, and I have to admit, it was nice to let go and eat some chocolate for a while. ;) But I know that's not going to get me where I want to be, so back on board I go! I already feel better, letting these thoughts out. (:

 I'll try to update later! Love you guys! <3