Giving up Something Good for Something Better.

Friday, April 1, 2011

I'm Back!

"The greatest thing you have is the 24 hours in front of you.
The past is gone; the future is distant. Today you CAN succeed. 
Set a goal you can achieve in the next 24 hours."

Hello Again

Well, once again I was away longer than expected. I did well for the first half of the vacation, then crashed and burned once chocolate got involved and pigged out for days. But, I've decided I'm not going to spend anymore time wallowing in self pity and lack of control. It's time to just get back to business. 

All in all, my mind has probably made the damage seem much worse than what it really is (as usual). My tummy fluctuates dramatically depending on how I'm eating, of course, and I feel like my face gets really chubby the more I eat, but it's so hard to be 100% sure about the changes... And how do you measure cheek fat? Lol no idea...

 Today's Intake:

Breakfast: An Orange (70)

Lunch/Snack: Kashi Granola bar (120)

I'm going to try to sort of ease myself back into my normal routine in hopes of controlling cravings and binging. I didn't really count calories all week, so I'm just going to give them some ugly red (pimple-like) dots on my calender. 

Will update with Dinner later. :)

Keys to Success

I want to make a list of things that really help me get "back in the saddle".

1] Breakfast & Morning
If I control myself at breakfast, I generally have much better control during the day. And I think the key is to let myself really wake up before I chose to eat something. So if I go for a quick walk, do the dishes or laundry or just make my bed and tidy up my room I am awake and thinking properly and will grab something small and healthy instead of a bowl of cereal.

2] Drinking Tea
I know, everybody says this over and over but tea is my godsend. Hot tea especially, it's so filling. If I am consistently making and drinking it through out the day it's much easier to keep from snacking.

3] Controlling Myself at Dinner
It's the big meal of the day, which isn't good but I don't have a choice, I HAVE to eat dinner with my family, and my parents are great cooks. They always make something tasty. They've been making an effort lately to eat healthier, we tend to have a salad with every meal, but it's still not healthy by my terms and I MUST remember: 
EAT SLOW. Chew every bite 20+ times. 
Drink water between EVERY bite. Set my fork down often. 
I always discover that by the time everyone else has cleaned their plate I still have about half of my dinner left, and since they're getting up and doing dishes I can easily get up and throw out what's left without anyone noticing, and I feel full anyway.

I don't know why, but last year I had much better control, I didn't have to remind myself of this stuff, I just did it. Of course, I've also been messing with my birth control all year, and my hormones have been constantly out of whack. :( Excuses, excuses...

Will I ever be thin?

Yes. Yes I will.

Calorie Calendar (3/28 - 4/3)
Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday

600 550
Final Total :: Calorie Goal :: Met Goal :: Over Goal :: Incomplete
This Week's Excess Calories: Too Many!


  1. you're so organised I love it :) you're strong, keep it up xx

  2. We will be thing, we will! Hah, :)




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