Giving up Something Good for Something Better.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

A Far Cry

I am a far cry from the girl I was those years ago.

It's strange to find myself looking back into this world, a world that use to be mine.

I am turning 21 in less than ten days.

In some ways, I am stronger. In others, I have become weak.
I can't say I've made any great self improvements.
I can't say there's much to be proud of this birthday.

But I feel stable. I feel ready.

I want, I need, this year to be my year. 

I want to become so much more than I am today.

I spent today reflecting on everything. 
Most especially reflecting on the things I have neglected:
 My body, my diet, my wardrobe, my self worth. 

I have come to a single conclusion:
There is no other option left.
There is no other way I can be happy in who I am,
without taking care of my neglected body.

I have so much to be happy for in my life, so much to take pride in.
And I am dishonoring all of it by not being happy.
I can not be happy without being thin.

I can't say I'll be blogging often, or regularly at all.

I can say that the next time you hear from me, I promise you, 
I will be on the right path.

1 comment:

  1. This is such an inspiring post. We lose a lot of moments not being focused and in sync with our lives. So much of life is lost stressing about the little things that (in the moment) seem so big and worth while. In the end, they just took a little more happiness away from you, and happiness that you deserve.

    Enjoy yourself on your Birthday! I remember my 21st birthday; it was really pitiful lol.




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